A change among changes

It's strange to think that this moment is, in itself, a climax. I'll never be the same person after this day. After this day, everything changes.

I've been thinking a lot lately about people...importance of relationships vs. graduating college...sleep deprivation and chronic fatigue syndrome. All of it feels, well...worth it. I feel as though I am tipping over a cliff in my life's story.

What if?

What if I decide to keep moving down this path? Will it be constructive or destructive in a total sense? Will I find love? Will I accomplish my dreams? Will my dreams change form? Will I like who I become?

I didn't realize when I was thrust down this path (fate's comedic relief) that I would actually have this much fun. I didn't realize that every day I would get closer to this wonderful person who I call my roommate. I didn't realize that I would love people more fully and understand scary things more consistently. I didn't expect to be dumbfounded by the wonderful examples of strength, courage and love that I have witnessed. I didn't expect life to be so...[fill in the blank].

After this day, everything changes. No matter what happens, I'll live it. I'll be astounded at the humbling experiences I'm directed into...and it will be worth it. Every drop of anxiety will be worth it.